Today is the 6th September 2010 . My first exam is over now and i feel so shag, it's not like i've been studying all night all week . In fact, i slept 8 hours last night . But it's the last paper tomorrow anyway .

I finally knew what it was, what was causing most of the problems . So right now, it's up to you to accommodate . I don't wanna force, because forcing doesn't result in a win-win situation . But my ''mental'' issues is making me go so insane i said something i shouldn't have said .

My past has forced printed a tattoo on my impression of men, i may not, or will not ever trust men again . I'm still working on it . They're just other human who is physically stronger than women .

That's why i get so worked up . . . when other women touch you, be it hair wash or massage . Very in particular, women with make up and is pretty . You may say there's no need for all that because i'm pretty in your eyes, but hey, some words don't work on me . Jealousy it is .

I am jealous when other women touch you .

It builds up a very strong defense wall against you when it happens, maybe because i'm angry, i don't have any choice to bring it down other than either keeping it to myself or flaring it up to you . Nevertheless, keeping it to myself always make me grumpy and quiet .

I don't wanna share you .

I gave up some of my friends for you, i'm left with very few . So right now, my life is all about you . Everything is you . I'll never wanna leave you . I'll never wanna mess this up .

I want you forever to myself .

See you soon . 14 days more .